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Submitted on
October 19, 2013
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184 (who?)
for Daisy

They wanted you to apologize
to the boy who was filmed
raping your unconscious fourteen-year-old body;
said the case had to be dismissed.
And it was.
It was. Despite the confession, the rape kit,
the video passed around your high school,
the grandson of the state representative
is attending college, tweeting unrepentant
about how all women want the D.

Two years later, after you have tried twice to die,
I see your story; Anonymous swearing justice,
people saying you wanted it,
that small-town girls are just sluts,
even the fourteen-year-olds, younger than the sister
I left in my own tiny county.

I am forced to remember:  the scalding looks
shot across the aisles of my Baptist church
(the first place he ever spoke to me,
twenty-seven years of experience
leveled against a misplaced thirteen-year-old);
the woman who lectured me on taking responsibility
for my own actions, that it was a mistake,
one he would suffer for more than I would.
The pastor telling my parents
that his family needed the support more,
as if that explained why he sat
on their side of the courtroom while I sat
on mine, staring at the brown of his head,
listening to gray-haired deacons testify
that he was a good man, understanding the implication:
I was not a good girl, making a big deal out of nothing,
how could it be rape I never said no
to anything he asked of me except my little sister --
then I said I would kill him
if he touched her.

It’s been eight years.
I still can’t say “I was raped”
without adding “It was only statutory,”
but for us, the girls and women and boys and men
who daily swallow the words
with antidepressants,
I write in first-person,
add my shaking hands and voice to yours
because none of us should have to live
wondering what we did
to be blamed for this.
The title comes from a quote from Sheriff Darren White on the decision to drop all charges against the boy who raped Daisy Coleman.

This is one of the hardest things I think I've ever done in my life. I'm doing this because I believe it can help other people who have been affected by the victim-blaming that tormented Daisy Coleman and other survivors of rape. I'm doing this because this very brave girl was able to sit in front of the world and talk about what happened to her, and watching her gave me the strength and bravery and reason to do this myself. This is the best way I know to take a stand against the attempts made daily to silence, shame, and blame victims for crimes perpetrated against them. If you agree, please share this post.

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Daily Deviation

Given 2013-11-16
I guess they're just going to have to get over it. by ~oracle-of-nonsense is "a sobering response to the tragedy of victim-blaming" (suggester's words). Thank you for commenting respectfully on this piece. ( Suggested by Nichrysalis and Featured by neurotype )
introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014   Writer
The injustice in this piece comes through so strongly.

My thanks to you, for this piece and for your bravery. :heart:
oracle-of-nonsense Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2014  Student Writer
Thank you. <3
introverted-ghost Featured By Owner Apr 17, 2014   Writer
GDeyke Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013   Writer
I don't have the words to tell you how this made me feel. Thank you so much for writing this.
oracle-of-nonsense Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you :)
spadiekitchenqueen Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you (from a survivor, to a survivor) :hug:
oracle-of-nonsense Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2013  Student Writer
transient-daughter Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013  Student Writer
Wow, congrats on the DD. I'm glad you can get your work out there where other people will listen. You really do deserve the positivity.
oracle-of-nonsense Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2013  Student Writer
Thank you :) I was seriously happy crying when I found out.
bobraw Featured By Owner Nov 17, 2013
money talks. and you all know she
"asked"for it. yeah, she asked for it. right.
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